911??

My poor baby has been super stuffy for the past couple days so about 3 days ago I called the pediatrician answer line at about 10 at night cause she started coughing and really couldn't breathe. We took her in at 10 the next morning and she said it was just a cold and everything else looked great. She's up to 9.5. lbs .yay! Anway, yesterday she was soooo fussy all morning and that is not my child, so I was dripping some gripe water in her mouth, I had givin it to her once before with no issues. She must have choked on some because she stopped breathing, turned purple and her eyes rolled back and closed and her arms dropped. I was FREAKING out beyond imagination and grabbed my phone to call 911. No I don't think I was being dramatic at all, this is my baby here. And right when I grabbed it she gasped for air and was choking for a bit. I felt like the worst mom ever. I didn't want to say anything to Josh because I felt so bad. But I called him about ten min after and told him what happened. He's the best, he assured me it wasn't my fault and it was just a freak accident. I hate gripe water, and she will never have it again. (even though it helped her the first time, I hate it).

On a positive note, I get to talk to this silly face every morning! <3

She is hilarious. She gets so excited and raises her eyebrows and flares her nostrils. I even caught her smiling a the same time. She is starting to be awake a whole lot during the day now and I love it! I love seeing her big ole blue eyes and talking to her.

Love my baby girl.

3 weeks

Harlyn is three weeks today! I swear I had her yesterday. She has grown out of NB pajamas because she is too long but needs like preemie bottoms in normal clothes cause she's so scrawny. She didn't get that from me! Ha. I had her on my shoulder and as usual she kept lifting her head and looking around. She did it so fast and her face knocked my shoulder. I felt sooo bad. I know know what her death cry sounds like. Bad mom. Good thing it only lasted about 30 seconds. Good thing babies don't hold grudges.

When life catches up

I have a journal laying next to my bed. Always begging me to write in it. I've had it for awhile. Maybe around 2 years. There MIGHT be ten entries. I've read them back a few times and it's a little bit sad to me. Ive always said I wish I had kept a journal throughout school so my kids can read it someday. Now that I have a child and I'm starting that chapter, I'm actually glad I didnt. Sad I know. But it's the truth. I know I'm not alone when I say there's things I wish I could take back. I wish I treated people in my life better. Made more of an effort in the things I did. I want my kids, and everyone else to see me in the most positive light. I need to get there first but I will. I get an e nail every day from LDS gems and I love them. They seem to be just what I need to hear every day. For instance, this quote from this years conference, "Raising our children is a much greater responsibility than we can do alone without the Lord’s help. He knows exactly what our children need to know, what they need to do, and what they need to be to come back into His presence. He gives mothers and fathers specific instruction and guidance through the scriptures, His prophets, and the Holy Ghost." I'm only 3 weeks in but I've already realized that you need the lords help in raising your kids. I pray every night that I can be the best mom I can and that Harlyn will have the patience as I learn. Poor first born kids. They're like a trial run on what and what not to do haha I'll never have all the answers but at least I can go to the lord for help! "LDS rules!" get it? "O'Doyle Rules!" no? Nevermind. :)

Crib already??

My baby girl has always been a pretty fantastic sleeper. Untill about a week ago when she seemed to want to throw her arms and legs all over the place while she tried to sleep, like she coudln't get comfortable. Of course every movement she made would wake me up and I'd peep over into her bassinet. We obviously didn't sleep the best for a few days. I let her nap in her crib one day..I laid her down, she threw her arms up by her head and her legs flopped open like a frog. She didn't move an inch until she woke up. She loves her space. So three nights ago I decided okay, I guess it's time to ditch the bassinet and let her sleep in her own room. SHE loved it. I did not. I did not close my eyes at all. I just thought, I can't hear her breath like I could when she is next to my bed, i can't hear her every movement, I can't stare at her! haha and really, she's my baby. she is two weeks old...I felt like I ditched her in a way. Like I just put her in her room and left her. I know, that's crazy talk. Anyway, what do I do? I lug the bassinet back in my room, right next to my bed and go get her sweet little self and put her back in my room. I am so selfish. She later woke up to eat and when I laid her back in there it all started agian..and she dind't sleep well the rest of the night. Once she got to sleep and I put her in, she would wake up immidiatly. Last night was her first full night in her crib. And she loved it. She would wake up to eat, and I would lay her back in there..not having to even bounce her till she was completely conked. She just settled herself in and didn't peep. It's hard for me to have her in the other room. I check on her all the time. Relax Whitney. Totally a first time mom, yeah I know. She's laying on me right now..completely passed out..I can't even describe how blessed we are that she chose us to be her parents. I just hope that she has the patience with us as we try our hardest to be the best parents to her that we can be. Did she really think we were that cool?? haha. She has definatly made me and Josh closer in a way only a child could, obviously. I love my little family and I can't wait to grow it..buuut for now we will just enjoy our baby girl!
On another note my best friend is getting married! Skylar, I can't wait! I'm so glad she has found someone she wants to share the rest of her life with. I know they will be so happy together. She has always been such an example to me. She had such good grades (I'll be honest, she was the reason I passed Chemistry haha) She is graduating from college, and just got her personal trainers certification, she is such a talented athlete and has such determination to reach every goal she sets for herself. I wish I had that quality. I feel so lucky that she asked me to be in her wedding and I can't wait! p.s. if you read this, FL is ugly and humid and gets hurricanes, so if you ever think about moving there, please don't :)

Two weeks!

She will be two weeks old tomorrow!! Time flies. Seems like I just had her. We just got back from the doc to follow up with her weight. She's up to 8 lbs 6 oz. Only one oz more than her birth weight but she seems so much bigger! She's such a funny little girl. She makes the best faces and loooves to poop on me! Lol. She's still a really good sleeper and loves to eat. She hates her arms being bundled up in any way. She will wiggle them out and throw them up by her ears. She has no booty and she's still so scrawny that even the newborn bloomers, shorts and pants sag off her. When she is awake she likes to just lay there and look around. Kicking and throwing her arms all over the place. She loves the bath. Cutest thing ever. She makes me want like 10 kids. I think I'll just enjoy her for now, don't worry :)